Pause

I ran into a friend yesterday. He told me, “I’m on my way to buy your book.”

I wanted to hug him. Or at least buy him a beer.

Then he told me about the circumstances in his life. And the end of a long relationship and the disorientation that goes with murky transitions. (And in my heart, I knew exactly what he was talking about.)
“I need the power of pause more than ever,” he told me. “Right now, I am going 110 miles per hour. And I don’t know where I’m headed. I think I need to pause.”

I can’t argue with that.
And I wish him well.

But I can tell you from personal experience that the pause may not “set everything right.”

He that lacks the time to mourn, lacks the time to mend. Shakespeare

Sometimes, the pause is not just for “slowing down,” but for mourning. It may be, that in our pausing, there are no “answers.” Which is kind of a bum deal in a culture that is bent on bumper sticker advice. And closure. Like four-year old children, five minutes out of the driveway, “Are we there yet?”

Mourning our loss. . .our requirement for closure and tidiness and perfection.

Maybe, pausing is not for “fixing” things, but for creating a space to just be.

There’s a time for departure, even when there’s no certain place to go.

Tennessee Williams

Perhaps the power is in that space, where we are not itching for answers, or impatient with conundrums, or undone by life’s vagaries.

The bench in the photo hasn’t been used in awhile. But, even so, it’s a good reminder. For more garden sanctuaries, check out my collection on zenfolio. I don’t know where you go, but Theo Pelletier’s description is spot on.

Home is a place where you can catch a dream and ride it to the end of the line and back. Where you can watch shadow and light doing a tight little tango on a wooden floor or an intoxicated moon rising through an empty window. Home is a place to become yourself. It’s the right spot, the bright spot, or just the spot where you can land on your feet or recline in a tub or sparkling brew if you’re so inclined. It’s a place of silence where harmony and chaos are shuffled like a deck of cards and it’s your draw. It’s somewhere you can close a door and open your heart. Where the Heart Is

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2 Comments

  1. CONSTANTINE
    Posted February 27, 2010 at 3:51 pm | Permalink

    >You said, "The pause may not 'set everything right.'" and that maybe the pause is about "mourning our loss. . .our requirement for closure and tidiness and perfection."

    So absolutely true. Not only is this a "lost understanding" (at best it's an ignored one, especially in the "bumper sticker" solution world we live in), but when it does wash up on the shore of our lives like a message in a bottle waiting for us to uncork it and truly "see," we refuse its wisdom–mea culpa, too.

    I admit it's not a very comforting truth and there's a measure of melancholy spirit associated with it, but that doesn't make it less true.

  2. TERRY HERSHEY
    Posted February 28, 2010 at 2:33 am | Permalink

    >Yes, about the melancholy. We wish to disconnect from anything that feels "negative." We have the wrong measurements. We choose negative versus positive rather than true (authentic) versus artificial / manufactured (untrue).
    We are still learning that wisdom and truth happen not just (or only) in words (comprehension), but when we "live into" the experience. . .which may mean embracing the chaotic, the untidy and the mystery.

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